The Devil You know

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days left. today marks our 4 months together, and within that time we havent been a part for more than a minute. i just came to the realization that the amount of time we’ve been together is the amount of time we will spend separate. how do you go 4-5 months without seeing the person you love? i understand couples around the world have been in situations similar/just like mine. i just dont get how they cope with the pain, the separation anxiety. how do you do it? how do you wake up each morning, go with your day, and then go to sleep at night without breaking down? it sounds impossible and just devastating. i remember starting my count down at 200 days and being sad all the time… how i would go back now. i pray and wish among every shooting star, or fallen eyelash, that i could have more time to be with you. more time to feel your touch, to kiss your soft lips, or to be warmed by your body. i cant fathom the idea of walking away knowing i wont be seeing you for an extended amount of time. what will the last kiss be like? i feel so sick thinking this will be my reality in just a matter of 2 1/2 weeks. i feel so sick thinking i wont be in your presence for at least 60 days. i know there are couples out there that have been separated for much more tragic reasons such as military, or death. i know i should be thankful, but im not sure if i can handle this. i feel as if im too young and inexperienced to put myself through this hardship. but then again, i strongly believe that if this is real, we will find a way to make it work. after all, everything happens for a reason

Happily ever never

Once upon a time there was a princess. The princess and her prince were happily ever after until the prince was invited to a special kingdom far away in the south. In fear the opportunity would be crucial to his royalty, the prince decided he must abandon his princess and go reside in the far away palace where he could figure out ways to benefit his kingdom. However, things were not so. It appears that the prince was actually made for this life style after all. He preferred to live in this palace with the new unfamiliar royalty. All the while, the princess remained home waiting for her prince to return. She sat and waited in despair praying for the day he would come back to her and together they would rule the kingdom. Dismally, the prince forgot about the princess. With so much time apart, she became foreign to him and he forgot the rules of their kingdom and no longer had an interest of being with the princess. The princess already knew what awaited her in her kingdom and knew there was no one else like the prince. She wouldn’t dare to attempt to replace him because she already knew he was the best prince she could get. On the other hand, the prince found a new princess and asked her to be wed. Never thinking another thought about the princess from the far away land again, the prince lived happily ever after…. While the princess waited for his return.

there’s no worse feeling than

running to wipe the mascara away from the underneaths of your eyes so no one would know you’ve been crying

(Source: lia-overbrook)

642.6 miles, 11 hours, and only 95 days left

the fights. the unnecessary fights. such a waste of time and breath. we could be using our lips for better dont you think? we could be using our brains for better we could be using our hands for better. why would we ever waste a minute fighting when our remaining time together is so precious. before i know it your leaving me. your leaving me here in the dust to do god knows what. ill be part of your past and nothing more. how could i be more? if my maths correct, ill be over 640 miles north from you. there will be 640 miles between us. between our bodies, our skin, our lips. i cant deal with this pain. its killing me inside.. eating away at my insides. i dont want you to leave. i dont want you to leave me. you ask me why i act so crazy when im with you. you make me crazy. im crazy in love.

i have 95 days left to love you